Couldn't even walk outside
without having peering eyes
reach out from the ground
Couldn't even speak a word
without reality being
turned upside down
Shouldn't have tried to try at all
Should have disappeared
before the storm
Shouldn't have done anything different
Should have been like you
Settled in with the norm
Would've found my peace of mind
Would have enjoyed being like everyone else
Just hold my tongue a little longer
Just "get over yourself"

Couldn't even look in the mirror
without blaming it
all on me
Couldn't even see past the shame
of being someone that
just wants to be
Shouldn't have made myself aware
Should have blinded
the whole damn world.
Shouldn't have thought about all of those things
Should have laughed
and spun, and twirled
Would've rested all alone
Would've resorted to singing a song
Just can't decide how to stop it now
I was "over myself" all along